My Sentiments, Someone Elses Words

I don't know why I didn't post this right after I wrote it. This is from the end of Feb.

I am not doing the Beth Moore Esther study right now (I am just now doing Daniel), but Melanie at Women All Access had some comments on the Esther study here and she describes my week/ month. On top of those feelings/concerns, I have been struggling with decision making. I have shared this with you all before. It is one of the hardest parts of widowhood... making decisions on your own. My prayer is that God will make the decision black and white for me, just that obvious. I also don't like managing people that I have to hire to do stuff for me. Can you tell that I feel like making a list about what all "stinks" (for lack of a better word) about being a widow? But I won't give into Satan's ploy. God is at work in my heart and in my life. He is in control and He knows what is best. I don't want to settle for anything but His plan.

All that said, please pray for discernment for me.

On a totally different subject, I got a real "shot in the arm" tonight. Riley sat down at supper (homemade fried chicken fingers, corn, and homemade french fries) and declared it the BEST CHICKEN EVER! The highest compliment.... "It tastes just like Dairy Queen!" My buttons were popping off as he had seconds of chicken and french fries. Reagan joined in the praising with, "I wish my whole plate was covered with that chicken. It is so good."

Thanks, Big Boy, Mama needed that more than you know.

Don't get me wrong, I do cook some, that's not it. They like most of what I cook. It's just I don't get the "this is awesome" response very often and it felt good.