I Know This Guy....

I have gotten this a lot lately. Usually it is prefaced with, "Can I ask you a personal question?" I respond, "No, I am not dating anyone." No one has asked me out and I also have not felt ready until here lately. As I have mentioned before, God is working on me in this area.

Well, I got another one of those questions and "I know this guy" statements a few weeks ago. I gave the friend the ok to give my cell number. To my surprise, I actually got a phone call. (Big step for this girl.) We have now talked on the phone a few times. It is so hard and awkward for me. It makes me miss Dustin so badly. Many times as I am driving my mind plays out all the what-ifs, and I try to find a solution. Usually my solution is a miracle from God and Dustin did not die. Then I try to convince myself of the reality of the situation, knowing what Dustin would want for us, but ya'll it is beyond my comprehension that this could work (in general, not just with this guy). BEYOND my comprehension.

You all have been with me all along the way, so keep those prayers coming. I know many of you are already praying. I can feel it. Seriously... when I hesitate to answer the phone, when I get ahead of myself, when I get frustrated with myself, I feel God's presence reminding me that He is in control and I need to relax a little. I am loving Hebrews 10:23 "Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful." My hope and my salvation is in Him.

Please pray for Riley too. He doesn't know about the phone calls, but he does know that people have been asking if I am dating... He feels like he would be betraying his Daddy if he had fun with someone else or if he approved of my dating. He even asked Rod and Sue how they would feel if I dated someone. (So grown up of him to ask.) It made me realize how much he is thinking. He was worried they would be mad at us. They, of course, had positve and encouraging answers. I know it is so hard for them too.

Tough conversations. Big topics for a 9 year old.

I am praying for you all as well.

Thank you .